Late Night Shenanigans

So I never really make posts at night, I usually do them on Sunday afternoon, but I decided that I was in the mood to post, so here it is..

You know how most people do "Dear Me" letters? I never really thought much about doing one.. But, just laying here thinking about how far I've come in just a short amount of time, I decided I needed to make one, so I can look back on it years from now, and remember when I was in this place in my life.
Here goes it..

Dear Me,

You've been through hell and back, and you have learned so much along the way, and the best part is, you're still learning. You've been a light in the lives of so many people, and I don't think you realize. Every person you meet, you leave a mark on their lives. Make sure it's a mark that counts, and a positive one they'll never forget. Always be confident, and go with your gut (even though you don't have much gut left). Even on the days when your life sucks, find that little glimpse of hope, and always focus on the positives of the day instead of the negatives. Smile Always. Give yourself more credit than what you do. People refer to you as a hero and that you are their inspiration, please, be a good role model. Don't ever see yourself as better than someone else. Use your disease as a blessing, use it to witness all the wonders God has worked in your life, use it to inspire and motivate the people around you, if they have a chronic illness or not. Don't ever let anyone else have control over your happiness, you've been through so much turmoil and sadness, that you should never send yourself back to that place, let alone give someone else the power to send you there. People are cruel, people will always be cruel. Kill them with kindness, regardless. It's okay to cry sometimes, but don't become a hot mess. You stay strong through almost all of the motions of your life because you feel like you have to be everyone else's backbone. It doesn't always have to be like that, sometimes it's okay to cry and feel sorry for yourself, go somewhere alone, let it all out, regroup and move on. Don't ever let yourself stay in that place. Always forgive, when you choose to not show forgiveness, you aren't hurting the person you're angry with.. You're hurting yourself. Enjoy this moment, yes, this moment, in the hospital, with a virus, and an ostomy. Enjoy this moment, because years down the road it will be a memory, and a story about something you've been through. Don't speak so negatively about yourself, you always aren't skinny enough, or pretty enough, or healthy enough, but as Dr. Seuss says "Today you are you, that's truer than true. There is no one alive that is youer than you." Cherish the people in your life right now, because, they won't always be there. Believe you can do great things, and you will. Don't listen to the negativity of others, take constructive criticism and try to apply it to your life, but don't ever let someone break you down. Love fearlessly. If you have feelings for someone, don't ever pass up the opportunity to tell them. Always pray, about everything. Understand that the things God is putting you through right now, are preparing you for something greater than yourself, take all challenges head on, work your heart on, then when you make it out on the other side, you'll understand why it happened. Stay positive. Stay blessed.

From,
Me

"Just another day in the life."